acestea sunt versurile care mie, personal, mi-au cauzat o vaga obsesie.

A windstorm dropped a bird from the sky
It fell to the ground and it's wings broke and died
But when the time got by, back to sky it flied
'cause the wings healed in time and the bird was I

Time is the death and the healing
Take your last breath, 'cause death is deceiving
Time is the past, now and tomorrow
Days fly so fast and it leaves me so hollow

A snowstorm blew inside a wolf's eyes
and the frozen tears covered all the mountainsides
But then the time got by and the wolf died
and someday that wolf would be I
[Wintersun - Death And The Healing]

lyrics I love part 1

Voi scrie trei posturi cand am eu chef, nu neaparat urmatoarele, in care voi include o parte din versurile mele preferate

Mama put my guns in the ground
I can't shoot them anymore
That cold black cloud is comin' down
Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door
(Guns'N'Roses - Knocking on Heaven's Door)


Running, scrambling, flying
Rolling, turning, diving, going in again
Run, live to fly, fly to live, do or die
Run, live to fly, fly to live. Aces high.
(Iron Maiden - Aces High)


That's enough from all your taunting
Seems I can't remove you from my mind
Don't you know that sometimes
I wish they'd kill me from wanting you
I will sit alone in silence
Can't allow the meaning I can find
Will you be defeated when they
Kill me from wanting you
(Disturbed - Sickened)

As I dream about movies
they won't make of me when I'm dead
(Bon Jovi - Bed Of Roses)


We're scanning the scene in the city tonight
We're looking for you to start up a fight
There's an evil feeling in our brains
But it's nothing new, you know it drives us insane
(Metallica - Seek And Destroy)

I do believe it’s true
That there are roads left in both of our shoes
If the silence takes you
Then I hope it takes me too
So brown eyes I hold you near
Cause you’re the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere
(Death Cab For Cutie - Soul Meets Body)


Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by
Sweet child o' mine
(Guns'N'Roses - Sweet Child O'Mine)


Believe, when you lie
You will never need to recognize the source
Of deceipt
To renew your faith in God
You must believe, in your lie
The redemption is complete when you conceive
And decline
To release your lives
Sacrificed to me
(Disturbed - Believe)


Leave me out with the waste
This is not what i do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And i've got no exuse
(Damien Rice - 9 Crimes)


I can not pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved, you'll be loved
Like you never have known
And the memories of me will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
(Death Cab For Cutie - Someday You Will Be Loved)


I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
(Bon Jovi - I'll Be There For You)


The killer's breed or the Demon's seed,
The glamour, the fortune, the pain,
Go to war again, blood is freedom's stain
But don't you pray for my soul anymore.
(Iron Maiden - 2 Minutes To Midnight)

Sometimes perfection can be
It can be perfect hell, perfect...
(Jack's Mannequin - Bruised)


This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life
(Bon Jovi - It's My Life)


Had enough
Although I see you're not running
Still are the thoughts running through your mind
Dead to love
The path that you are now taking
Show me the reason to make you mine
(Disturbed - Devour)

melodiile sunt puse in ordine aleatorie in functie de cum le-am gasit in playlist si cum am gasit versurile pe net. deci da. nu are nicio legatura cu ordinea preferintelor mele

of numbness and addiction

scriu in engleza because i feel like it.

I believe that numbness is the sobriety of the soul.

So starting from the beginning. People always talk about how bad addictions can be to your health and how they can destroy you, kill you and so forth. But in my opinion, the biggest ambition of humans is the addiction to feelings.

I believe that the other addictions all start from the addiction to feelings. Well, at least, at a deeper level, not only at what you see. Maybe, some people only start taking drugs out of pure curiosity, but maybe some of them purely need something to take the edge off, to make them feel less, to make them want to feel less.

People want to feel love, they want to feel happiness, they want to feel anything other than the numbness, the indiference that could take all of their places. Some even want to feel hate or dislike, as long as they feel something, as long as there is a sign that they care about something. Anyway, you can't get enough of the positive feelings, so you do anything that stands in your power to achieve them. However, some people just ... don't know when they should stop, they don't know that what goes around comes around.

There are these kind of people and then... there are the people that are almost completely numb to the world around them. They are prefer to be observers rather than actually getting inside the circle. It's not like they don't have feelings or something like that... it's just that they don't have them at the same intensity as anyone else. They can feel sadness, but for a short period of time. They can feel rage, but in a small quantity. They can remember how stress felt, but they can't actually access that particular part of their feelings. They realize when they should start feeling afraid, but somehow don't. They just feel the fear that could somehow threaten their life - which they actually don't care about because, they realize that after a moment everything would be over. And then they won't remember anything from what happened.

This category of people isn't the best one. Numbness is like the sobriety of the soul. No, actually it is worser than sobriety. It's like the negative form of addiction. However, some people can't actually do anything against any of these forms.

Personally... in some situations I am numb to the world.

PS: New song added. Green Day - 21 Guns.

Mai nu stiu, nu-mi plac mie prea multe lucruri la aceasta tara, desi, nah ce sa zic, e OK, you get used to it. Imi place asta la noi oamenii, ne putem obisnui cu orice daca este nevoie :) chiar si cu lucrurile nu atat de placute. So yeah, cum ziceam... Un lucru imi place cu adevarat: faptul ca are ziua nationala pe 1 decembrie. In mijlocul perioadei de teze si cu inca doua saptamani pana la vacanta de craciun, ziua aceea libera este ca o gura de aer.

Nu pe bune. All that keeps me going este faptul ca avem un weekend de patru zile. Altfel, probabil as fi cedat psihic aceasta saptamana cu doua teze + un studiu de caz + toti profii incercand sa ne dea teste si sa ne puna cumva note. Ma rooog, nu ca m-as chinui foarte mult sa invat and stuff, dar totusi fac si eu minimul necesar, acolo.

of love and other monsters

[nu stiu daca voi mai aborda si alti monstrii in acest post, dar eh, imi place cum suna acel titlu.]

Ar trebui sa incepem prin a spune un lucru. Eu nu cred in dragoste. Nu cred in iubire, nu cred in cuvinte. Nu cred ca un cuvant ar putea sa descrie acel sentiment pe care il cauta toata lumea - desi unii nu recunosc acest lucru - sau orice alt sentiment, daca e sa o luam asa.

Ce este un sentiment? O simpla infaptuire, o traire, un moment de neliniste. Lumea ar fi, cu siguranta, mai putin colorata, mai monotona, pur si simplu altfel deca o stim. Lumea ar fi indiferenta. Oricum este, insa ar fi mult mai indiferenta decat acum.

Revenind la dragoste. Este greu sa explicam acest lucru, aceasta traire. Eu nu consider iubirea un sentiment. Eu condier ca iubirea este pur si simplu acel lucru pe care toate animalele il simt: atractia catre o persoana care ne-ar putea ajuta sa perpetuam specia si sa o facem mai puternica. Cred ca iubirea este pur si simplu acest lucru pus in cuvinte, infrumusetat pentru ca noi, oamenii sa ne simtitm mai presus de animale.

Si vreti sa spuneti ca nu este asa? Nu va simtiti atrasi de o persoana pentru ca, in primul rand, va place aspectul ei fizic? Ok, da, dati o atentie cruciala personalitatii, dar daca nu va place aspectul fizic nu veti avea niciodata o relatie cu persoana respectiva.

Si de aceea, dragostea - eh bine, acest monstru pe care il iubim dragoste - ne stapaneste uneori pana la exagerare. Si totusi, v-ar veni sa credeti ca este doar un proces chimic care are loc in corpurile noastre? Credeti ca este mai mult? Sincer, eu nu, insa, desi fiind o persoana sceptica sunt sigura ca ma voi indragosti macar odata. Ca si toata lumea.

De asemenea, consider ca dragostea nu poate sa dureze o viata, o vesnicie. Dar asta este doar opinia mea de copil tampit. Daca imi voi schimba vredoata parerea am sa va anunt.

PS: cu riscul de a exagera prea mult pentru o singura seara si de a face un post mult prea scurt, voi spune si faptul ca mi-am facut playlist si toata lumea poate sa asculte ce ascult eu momentan. Da, se va schimba din cand in cand si da, are preferintele mele muzicale, deci aviza amatorilor. nu este chiar pentru orice gust. :) Da, exista si o melodie reggae acolo, care este singura care imi place (Dub Incorporation - Rudeboy). Aceasta este o melodie absolut geniala, mai ales la partyurile din bebe. Dupa aia, exista si o premiera (sau trei premiere, nu stiu, cum vreti voi)...adica am trei melodii romanesti in playlist -eu, care nu ascult, in general, muzica romaneasca - adica cele doua melodii de la E.M.I.L (Noaptea si Da vrei) si Pistol cu Capse (De final, care se afla chiar, in finalul listei). Then, sunt niste melodii pe care eu pur si simplu le ador. Prima este Incubus - Love Hurts, pe care am descoperit-o de curand si m-am cam intoxicat cu ea in ultimele zile. Dupa aia a doua melodie este cea cu care m-am intoxicat saptamana trecuta. Megadeth - Die Dead Enough. Nu ma dau foarte mult in vand dupa mesajul melodiei, insa mi se pare incredibil felul in care este structurata si soundul. Then, avem un all time favourite: Apocalyptica ft Adam Gontier (Three Days Grace) - I Don't Care. Da, am si cate o melodie de la doua dintre formatiile mele preferate: Avenged Sevenfold (M.I.A) si Disturbed (Devour).

Enjoy! :)

bai fratilor, stateam in seara asta - in care am postat de doua ori deci WOW! - si ma gandeam ca oricum nimeni numi citeste blogul. bine nici eu nu-i ajut pe cei care poate ar vrea sa faca asta, fiindca, eh bine, nu prea imi pun linkul la status sau undeva - for that matter. deci nu multi oameni stiu ca eu am blog. uneori nici eu nu stiu, daca va vine sa credeti.

ma rog, ca idee, ma gandesc ca ar trebui sa ma las de scris. ma uitam pe blogspot inseara asta - da, mam jucat cu butonul ala care spune vizualizati urmatorul blog. siii am realizat ca toata lumea de aici scrie mult mai bine decat mine - eh, bine cu exceptia catorva domnisoare distinse care postau melodii cu salam si alte mezeluri si glitter graphics de pe hi5. Dar, anyway, nu stiu, imi place sa scriu, imi place sa am blog, si imi place sa ma gandesc la mine ca avand un talent macar nu stiu... putin acolo. Nu prea mult, dar macar ma simt bine.