I believe that numbness is the sobriety of the soul.
So starting from the beginning. People always talk about how bad addictions can be to your health and how they can destroy you, kill you and so forth. But in my opinion, the biggest ambition of humans is the addiction to feelings.
I believe that the other addictions all start from the addiction to feelings. Well, at least, at a deeper level, not only at what you see. Maybe, some people only start taking drugs out of pure curiosity, but maybe some of them purely need something to take the edge off, to make them feel less, to make them want to feel less.
People want to feel love, they want to feel happiness, they want to feel anything other than the numbness, the indiference that could take all of their places. Some even want to feel hate or dislike, as long as they feel something, as long as there is a sign that they care about something. Anyway, you can't get enough of the positive feelings, so you do anything that stands in your power to achieve them. However, some people just ... don't know when they should stop, they don't know that what goes around comes around.
There are these kind of people and then... there are the people that are almost completely numb to the world around them. They are prefer to be observers rather than actually getting inside the circle. It's not like they don't have feelings or something like that... it's just that they don't have them at the same intensity as anyone else. They can feel sadness, but for a short period of time. They can feel rage, but in a small quantity. They can remember how stress felt, but they can't actually access that particular part of their feelings. They realize when they should start feeling afraid, but somehow don't. They just feel the fear that could somehow threaten their life - which they actually don't care about because, they realize that after a moment everything would be over. And then they won't remember anything from what happened.
This category of people isn't the best one. Numbness is like the sobriety of the soul. No, actually it is worser than sobriety. It's like the negative form of addiction. However, some people can't actually do anything against any of these forms.
Personally... in some situations I am numb to the world.
PS: New song added. Green Day - 21 Guns.
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but you can be addicted to anything, not only to feelings. but yes, people are addicted to feelings, because.. well, maybe cause everybody says this is the way it should be.. and because our life would be humdrum without feelings. it would be like.. grey.. neither white, nor black.. what does gray express? dullness, sadness, sobriety, as you said.
PS: I like your blog ^_^
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